Social anxiety

As soon as I leave the doorway out of any structure I begin feeling anxious. Pressure on my chest hard to breathe. And it’s not even that bad I’m not in danger of physical violence but more the emotional kind. Hurt feelings circumstances scenarios in which I do not want to belong too.

working on my social anxiety, listened to as a man thinketh and it enlightened me.


— social situations are getting better, gonna get better, soon , o yeah


i live on the streets homeless, and a drunken lush.


Short story written in Las Vegas by Joseph Bukoski (simple)

This is a short story I wrote describing my feelings at the time

Written by Joseph Bukoski (pronounced Boo-kow-ski) [Bukowski]

I feel empathy for them, I wish I could help lessen their burden without increasing my own. I really try to help, but there are many of them, so little. I have an exact 0.00 balance in my bank account.

Las Vegas Nevada, Summerlin . spent evening after snapping photographs catalogued as memories of my past in the future, thinking about simplicity Susanville, Ca, extremely rural communities I really like the country, now. When I was a boy, people, colleagues, coworkers, the like, used to tell me how they wanted to live in the city, so badly. broke, poor as dirt, nothing much to look at, dressed lower than modestly. I have on some high end fancy jeans, city fashionistas tell masses from mass media channels like the television, internet, and radio. A nice t-shirt that has two fingers pointed upwards, making the universal “peace” symbol, the State of California flag colors emboldened on the palm of the hand. I think about my exlover, my ex fiancé, oh how I miss her, sitting her, outside this closed doctors office, my eye tear up thinking about her, my emotions choke, up from my chest to be stifled in my throat. My eyes tear so bad, I cannot see what I am writing. I miss her, but in the past, regret comiing here, I was well aware of the poverty of people in the city, especially the inner city dwellers, they are really very poor. I feel empathy for them, I wish I could help lessen their burden without increasing my own. I really try to help, but there are many of them, so little. I have an exact 0.00 balance in my bank account. I see the rich and famous, truly wealthy people on the faucets of the media, and sometimes I am jealous but some other times I feel like I am with them, enjoying their company, the good times
Jealous, in the same moment time physical space as same me meme.

Communist pamphlet literature disguised like Jesus Christ
Women, oh the women
And the kids, some one save the kids

Duck the police

Fuck the police.

Harassing me two times two days. Fuck ’em. They should find something better occurring , than harassing me. All Cops are Bitches bastards horrible violent evil people oppressive, repressive, and becoming an enemy to the people of the US. “The only thing for tyranny to Reign is for good men to do nothing”. The victims of oppressive government and police brutality are the good men, but instead standing by idly, are spurring action, demonstration.

Free assembly , press, and the freedom to purse ones religion as chosen by them and express oneself are being threatened by the large Autocractic government of Trump Hotels Inc.,

We are losing our truly American, and most importantly, HUMAN values.

The current climatic state of affairs around the world and within the United States is not by chance or coincidence ; a true showing of chaos and disorder within the Systematic, technologically controlled, systemically wealthy (which is good), but corrupted by governments elite, wealthy Sovereigns

Technological progress does mean bad , not good and scientific progress doeslessen the freedoms once enjoyed by all people prior to their creationViolence, power, brainwashing, assassination, system socializing a person from birth to grave, does cause the reign of elite in our country , world, maintaining an order, large-complex, degrading system, in which people are nonviolently socialized by school, told what horrible crimes guns commit, and how the need for a “golden rule” to “treat another person properly” is needed over people exercising their free rights or their needs to commit violent act against something the founding father’s fought from the plane of this country, Tyranny. When violent act is needed to be invoked, by the Constitutionally and righteously protected right to “bear arms” against any enemy of the constitution, when people realize that, then people may have a chance against an eventual break-down in a VERYLARGECOMPLEX Atrocious system, losing its once beloved civil liberties and FREEDOMS.I understand you Ted Kaczynski, we do live in an oppressive society that does more harm than good for the citizens, being swayed by Leftist “SJW” “Activists” that are the enemy of Revolution, believing anything can be fixed when it is the attempt to fix a part of our country, that cannot be saved without revolution. Digital media revolution, now is apart of the Industrial Revolution, bringing us socialist media, killing the children, controlling the massesIt is not what is “right” is “right”, but that which is strong, violent, mass murdering, and dominating that is “right”.Industrial society and it’s Future for further reading … Technological Slavery also by same Author (Theodore Kaczynski) is a good read, I just didn’t FIND it as powerful in emotion and riveting as ISaiF but here is an awesome copy of Tech Slvry“It truly is impossible to think, feel, act in a completely moral way in our society; the obligation to do so imposes severe Psycological burden upon us and worse, this FC looks at as some of the cruelest things this oppressive way of life has on us”FC, ISaiF”

“I believe,—“That government is best which governs not at all;” and when men are prepared for it, that will be the kind of government which they will have…..

Unjust laws exist; shall we be content to obey them, or shall we endeavor to amend them, and obey them until we have succeeded, or shall we transgress them at once? Men generally, under such a government as this, think that they ought to wait until they have persuaded the majority to alter them. They think that, if they should resist, the remedy would be worse than the evil. But it is the fault of the government itself that the remedy is worse than the evil. It makes it worse. Why is it not more apt to anticipate and provide for reform? Why does it not cherish its wise minority? Why does it cry and resist before it is hurt? Why does it not encourage its citizens to be on the alert to point out its faults, and do better than it would have them


“If the injustice is part of the necessary friction of the machine of government, let it go, let it go: perchance it will wear smooth–certainly the machine will wear out… but if it is of such a nature that it requires you to be the agent of injustice to another, then I say, break the law. Let your life be a counter-friction to stop the machine. What I have to do is to see, at any rate, that I do not lend myself to the wrong which I condemn.”

Henry David Thoreau, Civil Disobedience and Other Essays

Henry David Thoreau said all three of the above quotes, actually, and he was a practical minded man

Having a degree in business I have studied the science of economics. This always begs one of the first questions in the disciple, “What is Money?” , “¿ Que es el dinero?”. Well due to scarcity, that fact that things are not plentiful, a common currency is decided upon to quantify the value, worth, or price of a good/service/stock/bond …..

Using money does make us free, especially in America, Hail to Capitalism hail to thee!!

Established economic models are great because they rely upon the assumptions that there is (which there really is) an almost insatiable consumer demand, along with unlimited infinite resources; that will never go down, never die (people will want more and more and more is produced/consumed as the global population will continue to rise due to increases in medical technology, sciences, lower infant mortality and a higher life expectancy.

The system, the times that the oversocialized (socialized come from a term, like to “potty train” in Psychology is a great example) to do act out of the ordinary is rare, but for the most part Theodore Kaczynski was right that all human live like mere social cogs, acting like a dog on a leash …… eating food that’s prepackaged, from a store, existing in the first world on nuclear reactors, losing survival skills, and really in my opinion every invention or technology meant to make our lives easier, never truly have! And as much good a technology does it does equal or greater harm. The system doesn’t care that you are violent, they only want to maintain order in a structured line. The system would rather we hurt each other, bicker, fight, instead of Unify and overcome to a REAL SUSTAINABLE SOCIETY.

So ha yeah these cops, some other people wanna ,fuck up my life, and I’m just being me, LIVIN,

It makes me wanna break, and I wonder “what kind of people are really wanting to cause suffering in someone’s life?”

Those disenfranchised by the System, the ones it harms the most….. I understand, I FEEL U

I’m no TheodoreKaczynski, no I’m Joseph Bukoski. I don’t mean harm, the police continually harass me.

Freedom is being lost in this country

Technology + 9/11 = 0.00 freedom

We now have Patriot Act , that is an unconstitutional piece of legislation

The Governments’ ability to control mass population now is most likely the best it has ever been, especially with all the surveillance cams that have came out, complete invisibility “camo” etc… briefing regular citizens, dossiers, and the people have no idea they are tracked liked, mice, controlled like sheep, herded ….


“You can’t eat your cake, and have it too …”

Polish Proverbs

Free Theodore Kaczynski, he is innocent, and cares about you and me

Written by: Josef Bukoski

Semi-Sources Article

Information Regarding “Ted” Theodore “UNABOM” Kaczynski (working to free a genius mind, and Polish exile political prisoner held by the U. S. Government

A lawyer proving the founder of Freedom Club to be Not Guilty with evidence

Even though it was the government that brainwashed him in MK-ultra

The smoking gun . Com showing evidence that Theodore AKA “UNABOM” is actually innocent and “crazy”

Watch “Dragon Ball Z Kai – Final Chapters Part 2 – Available Now” on YouTube

Below is the video link to DBZKAI buu saga – fat Majin Buu kills babidi. 

Copy and paste link into your browser’s url…

I don’t think I like WordPress too much, at least not the free mobile app, can’t do as much, and I got a Pro account! Using the wp app on a cheap ZTE straight talk phone, too tho with low memory and CPU capability.
Still, amazing how like when I was 10 years old and tried to watch Dragon ball, in the year 2000, it was impossible on a 56k modem …